July 25, 2011

Feelings...

Perhaps I am being moody and sentimental, or perhaps I am feeling what I dredged up this morning when I told Al about my weekend. All I know is right now I am incredibly sad.

Was it the pictures I saw on my phone? Was it the realization of where things stand now that I am back in my life?

I guess the heart can still feel profoundly even when the head knows it was for the best. All I want to do right now is cry for what I thought I almost had...

Or, maybe I am crying because I know now that I let myself go there and it was a mistake. Maybe each of these tears streaming down my cheeks is another brick building that wall taller and stronger around my heart, making it even harder to trust that anyone will ever truly love me...

Is this my punishment for being a fool?

Hurting~

1 comment:

Alicia said...

You will come out on top of this - you are too upbeat to be down.